Tomorrow

hi guys, so tomorrow is the day of that career thing and I am getting more nervous ( I wrote about it on my last post). I just hate the unknown so much. Also I just found out that my so called ‘friend’ (i wrote about that too) is not going to it which means that I am definitely alone. This makes me extremely scared and I’ve been trying not to have a panic attack because it will just make my anxiety worse. 

I’ve been thinking about just trying to get out of it or something but I need to do it. I have to do it otherwise anxiety will win. I can’t let it beat me, we can’t let it beat us. I have to be stronger than it. If I don’t go I’m going to regret it so much. 

If you want me to tell you guys how I went please tell me in the comments, and I’ll tell you all about it tomorrow afternoon. 

Remember we can’t let this beat us. We have to be stronger 

Sophie’s cloud xx

Worried & Scared

So next week I have this career thing and i am so scared. It only goes for about 2 hours but I am extremely worried because I have no idea what is going to happen. It’s probably not even going to that big of a deal but the thought of it makes me feel sick. I hate the unknown and not knowing what’s going to happen. I also hate planning my future because I am literally so scared.

I have no idea what to do and I’ve been having panic attacks a lot lately from this. I feel as if my anxiety is just getting worse and I just feel like crap. I’ve been trying to get out of it but I know that’s not going to help at all. I feel like I’m going to be sick while writing this its that bad. Please give me advice or anything. It would mean the world. 

Sophie’s cloud xx

Friends?

Okay so I want to tell you guys something that I’ve had on my mind for a while and I thought you guys might have some suggestions. I have one main best friend that I hang out with at school everyday. But the problem is that I feel like I’m not that important to her. She is constantly talking about her other friends in her old town and how awesome they are and she’s constantly saying that she’s texting them all day. I think that’s fine to talk to your old friends but the way she says it just makes me feel very unimportant. 

She can also be very judgemental but I guess that’s just her personality. Also whenever there’s ‘someone better’ around she would talk to them and not even talk to me at all which makes me feel not so great. Because of my anxiety I find it very hard to make new friends. I have got a few girls that I talk to and that are really nice to me but I just don’t have the guts to ask if I could hang out with them if you know what I mean. Also next year she’s saying she’s going to be in all different classes than me which I hate because I have the most biggest fear of just being alone or no one being beside me that I feel comfortable with. 

It’s just been really getting to me and I’ve been having a lot of panic attacks from this because I have no idea what to do. If you have any suggestions please comment them below. 
Sophie’s cloud xx

My relax place

If you didn’t read my very first post, I love photography. I kinda found out that photography takes me away to another world where I don’t even think of fear. It makes me feel happy and it makes me feel like I’m connecting with something, but I don’t know what. I’m sure everyone has a relax place and mine is photography (I’ll put some of my photos in this post too). I definitely recommend you to try just taking photos outside when you’re feeling stressed or just not feeling 100%. I does really help me and I thought it could help you guys too? Anyways please tell me what your ‘relax place’ is because I would love to know! And if you haven’t found yours yet I want you to try and find it, somewhere, anywhere.

      
Sophie’s cloud xx

I’m back

Well hello there everyone, I just wanted to do a quick post to say something. I’ve been seeing so much negativity everywhere lately and I just wanna say something real quick. You all are amazing! Every single on of you. I know that things get hard but everything does get better, I promise. I want you all to smile, for me. 
Sophie’s cloud xx

Welcome to my world!

Hi everyone! my name is Sophie. I have decided to make a blog, I thought this might be a good idea to let out any of my worries or struggles that I have that you  guys could also have. I have decided to make this blog anonymous (except my name) because I want to keep it private.  I know that this could just be a big flop but I really hope it won’t. okay so here is a few things about me. My name is Sophie, I love photography so you will most likely see a lot of pictures on here. I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks and I love making people happy. I am very new to this but I’m sure it will get easier when I post a lot more. Anyways, please please leave comments about anything at all for me to read! I am going to try to post at least every 3rd day so I’ll see you soon!

 

Sophie’s cloud xx