Hey guys, long time no see. I know I haven’t been on here in a long time but I really need some help.
I dunno if I mentioned about the boy in my last few posts but things have been so hard between us and it’s been really impacting everything in my life. We were very close when he was living in the same town but now that he has moved 5 hours away from me everything has seemed to change. He told me that he still wanted to be friends except it’s hurts the most that we are still sexually active together when he comes home. I know that I have to move on as he clearly has but it’s really hard when he still wants to be ‘friends with benefits’. I talk to him daily but I think that’s the problem. I’ve tried cutting him off multiple times as it’s just been so emotionally hard to be just friends when I have such strong feelings for him but it never seems to work and I just come running back. Every time. I feel like it’s just a circle that never ends but it’s really been affecting me. I don’t really know what to do anymore because I don’t want to loose him ever but it hurts so fucking much. and like I understand that we can’t be together as he’s 5 hours away but the fact that he still talks to me as if I’m the only one just fucks with my head. One minute I’m absolutely done with him and the next I’m head over heels in love. It’s fucked.
Sophie’s Cloud xx